im shifting!!
BACK TO LIVEJOURNAL!! [x
weehees!!
i love LIVEJOURNALING! :D

i hate you.
i really really hate you.
what should i do to even make you feel better?
i hate you as much as i hate myself.
i really do.

my whole mind's blank. im all empty inside. i really wish i was knocked by that car just now. I REALLY WISHED!
maybe thats what you wish for too. :D


我爱得好累了. 我该怎么办才好？
和你说话也错, 安静得没话说也错。
离开你也错, 不离开你也错。
我该怎么办才好呢?
我该怎么做你才会开心呢?!

i wanna have a home to call my own.
i wanna have a normal family, with a dad, mom, sister,brother and me in it.
i don't wanna lose anything.
i don't wanna have a feeling as though home is just another battleground. =/
i want my home to be a warm one, one i can lean on..

ALL YOU'VE SAID ARE LIES! GET IT!
i will never believe your lies ever again!
you can continue lying to me.
maybe that will make you feel better.
DO YOU REGRET LIKING ME NOW!?
maybe you should!

school is terrible.
my life is in a mess.
everything i ever once thought i've got hold of
was NEVER there.

why doesn't it ever rain on me? =[

rahhs..im listening to photo by ryan cabrera and crying. =/ i just feel so emo.

A photo can say a thousand things
But it can't say the million things i wanna say
A photo can capture the way we were
But it can't capture the way we are
Cause you're far away

What it's like to know you
What it's like to touch you, yeah

When you told me that you loved me
Were those just words?
You cant tell me you don't need me
And i know that hurts
Cause im looking at your picture
Cause its all i've got
Maybe one day you and me will have
One more shot

Timing lost minutes and moments
Yeah i might be lonely girl
But im not afraid
In a second it all comes right back to me
No nothings forgotten now
Yeah everythings saved

What its like to touch you
What its like to know you, Yeah

When you told me that you loved me
Were those just words?
You cant tell me you dont need me
And i know that hurts
Cause im looking at your picture
Cause its all i've got
Maybe one day you and me will have
One more shot

You were my life
You were my faith
You gave me hope everyday

When you told me that you loved me
Were those just words?
You cant tell me you dont need me
And i know that hurts
Cause im looking at your picture
Cause its all i've got
Maybe one day you and me will have
One more shot

the whole school went to watch freedom writers today, at first i felt it was dumb! cuz its like so many heads turn and see us.. feel so weird... - . - ZZZ
but the show is really very inspiring. it made me erms..cry.. :X i feel so emo liaos, see people die on the screen just makes me feel like crying. its like i also could understand how they feel lahs!
it made me wonder if im insignificant. T . T

its like every single day, people are dying, with valid or no valid reasons. Be it commit suicide, died of hunger, drowned, car crash, got shot, got stabbed, got erms.. bombed?!, aeroplane crash, helicopter crash, died maybe cuz someone hates him/ her. sighs.

it makes me think...maybe my sis's death aint that big deal anyway. =/ but i still love and miss her alot. ]=
i don't know why when i heard this sentence over the radio today, i really felt really sad! "When you told me that you loved me, Were those just words?"

sighs. maybe love is just a word. =/

waaa~!!!! I DON'T WANNA GROW WISDOM TOOTH LIAO LAHS!!!!! so pain!!!! ]=

oh gosh! im so in love with the song in pearlyn's blog! [x

I see the king of glory
Coming down the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes, the whole earth shakes
I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing, the people sing

Hosanna, hosanna
Hosanna in the highest

I see a generation
Rising up to take the place
With selfless faith, with selfless faith
I see a new revival
Staring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees, we're on our knees

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart for what is yours
Everything I am for your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
Hosanna

i wanna be closer to him.
my dearest daddy God. [:
nothing's better than that.

i watched diary today! its a pang brothers film! its about a girl who is schizophrenic. schizophrenia is really scary. i really hope i wont turn out that way! heehees. its acted by isabella leong (the pretty girl who acted in bug me not), charlene choi and shawn yue! shawn yue is UBER CUTE! :D
those who understand chinese must go watch okays! its only NC16. hahas. wanted to buy the vcd, then this lady said something which made me nearly laugh in front of her, cuz diary came out SUPER LONG AGO! like 2006? yupps. in the middle of 2006, and she told me the vcd came out not long ago?! is Singapore slow or what?! geez.
in the end went to rent it for only 2 bucks! hahas! it sounded more worth it. heehees. i wouldn't watch for too long anyways.

isabella said something really meaningful in the show. " girls like to be cared for by a guy, but guys like to care for all girls." sounds really true!

talked to mummy today, she talked to me about my sis. She told me more about my sis, i did not know my sis had depression. she looked so normal to me. But she breaks down really easily. Mummy is worried that i'll be like her. she said she's gonna show me more concern. [: hahas..

maybe i should a little more concern to the things and people around me. STOP BEING SELF -CENTRED! hees. :D
talked to mummy about friends today.
learnt that "friends shouldn't really be a BIG WHOLE PART of my life" cuz at a certain point, you will definitely lose and gain some friends. those who are sincere to you, those who treat you as real friends will stay on with you no matter what. [:
seriously, what if i say i have cancer or even leukemia one day, how many will stay on and be my friend? hees.

Daryl's blog url is "no-more-coffee-for-me @ blogspot"
so i told him i wanna change my blog url to "more-milk-tea-for-me @blogpot"
heehees.

my tuition teacher's super uber cute today! hahas.
shaking his handphone just cuz his phone hanged. - . -

hmms..i cant seem to understand guys anymore. they are so unpredictable. daddy god, please help me understand him better. sighs.
im addicted to chocolates and throwing up now.
hahas..
i don't know whats wrong with me! whatever i eat, i throw it all up. geez.
i seem to be used to it already.
like early in the morning, i try not to eat too much cuz i know i'll soon throw up again. so whats the difference. HEEES.
but im not bulimic!

YAYX! twinnie and i wanna go be ij's nuns! LOLS! guys are just so unpredictable.. :D