i feel like somehow i am drifting further and further away from the friends outside. Maybe the friends i talk to, meet each and everyday are still the best. (: PUT THIS ASIDE!

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i feel so sad today, when jonathan PS-ed me! He said he wanted to teach me maths and yet he went to play LAN! i really felt very weird being the only one in the lan shop with don't know how many guys playing LAN? I felt like as if i am drowned in my own loneliness, so i left. I actually wanted to ask him to eat lunch with me! RAHHS! he so evil! In the end, i end up eating instant noodles at my house void deck. I met my neighbour and she went like " ni mama mei you zu ar? " so i said " you, dan shi gang cai qu xue xiao suo yi mei chi" den she was like " OH! ni chi dian xin ar? " - _____ - EVIL! PLAIN EVIL! THAT WAS MY LUNCH! NOT SOME KIND OF DIAN XIN OR WHAT EVER! CHEENA WOMAN! bleahhs!! xP I dont FREAKING HELL care if anyone bothers? But somehow i dont like being the first person people notice! YOU KNOW THAT! even my mom went like " WAHS?! you more popular than me ar? so many people call you ?! - ___ - " im not popular, neither do i want to ! i really wished i could have some quiet time eating instant noodles and this cheena neighbour of mine started talking to me? " WHY CANT YOU JUST TREAT ME AS TRANSPARENT?!" ): RAHHS!