i wish, and wish and wish with all my heart , mind, soul that things would be how it used to be once again.

i really miss the times being able to message him 24 hrs and he would still manage to somehow reply me. i really miss the times being able to call him yet although somehow not recieving an answer yet being able to be entertained by his voicemail. somehow i just really wish things would be the same. But the feelings are not the same anymore.

I broke his heart, left him without saying a word. Whats even more hurtful to a guy than this? I avoided him like for bloodyhell one month? deleted him from all my contacts in msn and hp. and now what? i wish things would be the same again?

somehow, i really wish somethings wouldn't be the same again. The times being neglected by him, the times i really feel damn insecured. The times i really wish he was by my side yet i know how impossible it was, and then blaming it on him that it was his fault? I feel so mean and evil. The time when he called me "a childish person", i know things wouldn't be the same once again.

But somehow really thank my friends who pulled me through this stupid damn relationship! *hugs and kisses gals!* you all are just sooo lovable (:

PS: you never knew the tears i cried; but i know they are no longer worthwhile (:

i'm one STUPID emoBITCH!