hais.. i feel so darn hurt! Its so freaking darn hurting to find out that a friend whom you trust so DARN MUCH, whom you treat as a friend, whom you laugh and smile with, could be actually a killer to you?

it just kills me to know that my friend is hurting me deep down in my heart, i may look as though i do not mind right in front of my friends, but it really hurts me deeply. Truthfully, i never knew a friend could say such stuffs about you! BUT I'D RATHER SHE/HE TELLS IT AT MY FACE!

I do not care if people scold me a bitch or a slut right at my face! You may even insult me in front of me! BUT just stop the talkings behind me! IT FREAKING PISSES ME OFF!! It just shows me what a despicable creep who doesn't like to own up for what you have said! Hearing things someone else have said from my own friend, its like "HOLY SHIT! WHY WOULD SHE DO SUCH A FREAKING DARN THING TO ME?!"

its as though the trust between us has diminished and its just as though, without a friend like you, i may have been much much happier! THANKS TO YOU! i've been hurt darn deeply!! i really wish i could tell you something like " GET YOUR ASS OUT OF MY SIGHT!" or maybe " F*CK OFF! I DON'T WISH TO SEE YOU! HOW MUCH I HAVE LOVED YOU SINCE THE BEGINNING OF THE FRIENDSHIP, IT JUST HAS TURNED INTO HATRED! GET IT!"

NO MATTER WHAT, I WOULD RATHER BEFRIEND SOMEONE WHO SLAPS ME ON THE FACE, WHO SCOLDS ME RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME, THAN BEFRIEND A PERSON LIKE YOU WHO STABS PEOPLE IN THE BACK!

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