I finally picked up the courage to avoid some people i don't wish to talk to.
i DON'T WANNA go back to that church.
yes, i agree that the church service is great.
BUT THE PROBLEM IS WITH ME! its not the church service!
i just feel as though i can't communicate with the people there.
I JUST SIMPLY FEEL SO DIFFERENT! GET IT!

i really hope you guys can understand how i feel lahs!
i mean like IMAGINE!
you go to some gathering..
and you see that everyone around you is from JCs, Polys, ITEs.. and you are still like STUCK IN SECONDARY SCHOOL lahs!
you just feel so different lahs.
somehow every week i go to church, i just start to question myself.
why did i choose to come? is it because i'm afraid to reject him?
i mean like it sounds really bad to reject someone when he invites you to church right?
BUT I JUST FEEL SO DIFFERENT FROM THEM LAHS!
i mean like - whatever topics they're talking about.
i can never understand what they're thinking.
i can never understand the words they speak.

i just wanna be myself, with the group of friends i have right now. NOTHING extra.