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Saturday, April 28, 2007
9:30 PM
im back to being sucidal again larhs! ): ):
im starting to be like natasha..
natasha went like " i must do this..i must not do that or he will not talk to me."
and im starting to be like " i must study hard or else i will BE VERY POOR!"
and that really hits me hard!
its really pushing me to the edge.
IM REALLY TIRED!
DEAD BEAT!
just feel like going back to cutting my hand.
IT SIMPLY FEELS BETTER TO FEEL SOME PAIN!
don't ask me why..]:
KELVIN SOMEMORE SAY PUT SALT ON MY WOUND LAHS!
but i don't know why..
it doesn't hurt.
CAN SOMEONE PLEASE MAKE ME FEEL HURT?
FEEL REALLY HURT TILL MAYBE I'LL EVEN JUST START FALLING ON MY KNEES AND CRY?
sighs.
nothing i ever do is gonna be right.
nothing i wrote would ever be remembered.
nothing GETS INTO MY HEAD!
except DEATH i guess..
SIGHS! ]:
someone tell me what i should do?
hmms..which will be better?
cut my hand or eat a bottle of pills?
=/