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Monday, June 18, 2007
6:17 PM
i feel so lost. i feel like a three year old kid who just lost the balloons she held onto. i suddenly don't know what does happily ever after means to me, i don't even know what "i love you " these three words means to me.
i never felt that fairytales do exist, i don't wanna wait for some prince riding on some white horse or whatsoever. i don't wanna keep any promises, cuz i know i'll definitely break them.
i don't wanna ask myself why i like you, cuz i know i don't have a definite answer. i don't wanna continue searching for an answer. i don't wanna sit all alone and ponder why, cuz that will just make me even more confused. 我不想听你说你爱我，因为我不知道哪一句是真的，哪一句是假的. if we ever walk on the streets, would you even take a second look at me? if i ever get to hold onto your hand, would you hold on and never let go? 我已经没信心了.我不知道谁对我好,谁对我坏.
我觉得自己好笨,好傻.我会对 Jowena 说爱自己最重要了,但我已经喜欢你,喜欢得太累了,喜欢得把你看得比我自己更重要.im all head over heels for you. im starting to lose hope. im starting to don't know what im looking foward to.
im beginning to wonder what i've walked so far for. i got no more mood to study. even if i do study, you are the only thing which fills my whole mind. honestly, in the beginning, i was just playing with you. but now, i've realised i've placed my whole heart and mind into it. i cant back out. but i also realised something. 你的心本来就不属于我的.
if you wanna avoid me, go missing, just do it ba. i wont stop you anyways..
